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OK Megan,
You Don't Want To Be with Him
Bottom line as far as I can tell is that you don't want to be with
him any more, the reasons don't really matter, and now that you've
made your decision no one should second guess you. Now the problem
that you are facing, you don't want to be with him, yet you still
have some feelings for him (esp. because you were friends before
you were lovers) and you don't want to hurt him.
It Will Hurt
[Yours] is a rather selfish desire; no matter what you do he is
going to get hurt, and there's really nothing you can do about that.
I've been in his position (or close) and it sucks, it really truly
sucks. What you feel after you are left by someone that you deeply
care for is a powerful sense of aloneness, and it feels like it
will never go away, but what you don't (and he won't) know is that
it will, people have an incredible ability to get through even the
most painful situations.
 How
To Say Goodbye
The only advice I can give to you is do this now, don't wait because
he'll (even if its subconsciously) know that "something"
is wrong, and that will slowly eat away at him.
And when you tell him be honest, don't fudge how you feel, just
lay it out for him, but please do not just tell him and leave, be
prepared to talk to him as long as it takes, he's going to be angry,
confused, and desperate. Talk to him as long as he wants you to,
it'll be hard for you but it's selfish to do anything else.
Try to make him understand your feelings, if he really cares for
you he will try to understand you (even if he disagrees), he will
probably try to make you reconsider, he may get mad, (even violently
so) let him vent, and do whatever it takes to help him, but never
never give him hope.
Make it clear that this is your decision and that's it, he will
never come to terms with what has happened if he's living in a delusional
world where any minute you will be coming back.
You're Not His Shrink
As far as the possibility of him hurting himself, I honestly don't
know; if you really think he's suicidal tell someone -- a parent,
teacher, whatever -- some sort of authority figure that can help
him get the help he needs.
It is not your job to be his shrink.
– Rick
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